Loneliness has resonated with me for the last 15 months & I expect it to prolong some more. I feel like being lonely is a major issue today. How many of you feel empty inside & often outcasted...not just in the dating aspect, but in society in general? That’s how I feel almost every other day. Deserted, left out, forgotten, like a loser. Sometimes, I feel like I have nobody to talk to or have anyone whom I can relate to. It sucks feeling like this bro.
I wonder whether I’m being an emotional bitch or if I’m just being human. They said it’s feminine for a guy to have feelings, but I believe expressing them makes you a true man. I’ve felt vacant for quite some time. I never realized the duration though; I think since graduating college I felt like this. Even while with my ex I felt hollow, and especially when messing with the rebound. I began evaluating how long it’s been ever since I stayed to myself this last year.
It’s crazy how you figure things out once you have nobody else to talk to. I spent countless hours talking to myself. It may sound weird, but it made such a huge difference. It should be a requirement for us to converse with ourselves because it’s the only way you can discover something new within you.
Many times we all get so attached and caught up in needing & being with someone...which literally hinders our growth every second. The longer we desire another, the more we forget ourselves. I lost myself on several occasions while being in relationships & dating. I think that’s why I get more drawn to a person I’m interested in. It’s not on purpose, but at the same time it makes me pull back. Not because I don’t want to be with another person, I just can’t afford for my time to be wasted.
Ever since I remained alone, so much has happened. I’ve made great progress individually and professionally. Being lonely sucks, but man there’s so many benefits from it. I was able to love myself again, refrain from insecurities, master my craft & develop new ideas, & I was EXTREMELY productive.
The thing is I had this in me the entire time. I could’ve discovered this years ago, but I was too caught up in needing affection. Affection is good don’t get me wrong, but we forget that relationships are very time consuming. Texting and being on the phone can account for 8 hours a week, which could be 8 hours to grind & work on your craft.
The only reason why I get frustrated now is because I’ve gained enough confidence within myself to begin dating again...it just sucks that relationships are shunned today and damn near seem impossible lol. I dated myself for an entire year and that shit was so fulfilling.
I’m just ready for someone real, but until then I’ll continue taking advantage of being alone because there’s so much more I have in store.